imaginary numbers.

Happy Ending

2007-12-24T15:29:00.000+08:00

Mika

ohhhhhhhh...Arnott's is life.

Out of my head

2007-12-11T19:31:00.000+08:00

Fastball

Question of the day:
What makes people afraid of loneliness?

Answer:
Love

4 in the morning

2007-12-10T02:55:00.000+08:00

Gwen Stefani

I came to realise that even though I had accepted death, to an extent, I can never face it. Never. Not even when I am not alone. Not even when I am strong. Just never. It gets me real bad, emotionally and physically.

Life. Wish you are not in it, wish you have it good. Let's continue wishing :)

Any Other World

2007-12-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

Mika

I really shouldn't be posting now...I don't really feel well...Just had a huge quarrel with my SO, which resulted in me bursting into tears and him leaving. I don't know what it will lead to and what it is leading to.

But, I had to mention this: I watched Golden Compass today. I would give it a 6.5/10 if not for Nicole Kidman's faboo acting and the "visibly nice" animations.

Final Judgment: 7/10

It's not bad, HOWEVER, there was laughter throughout the hall when the movie was coming to an end - none of us knew it WAS the end. But apparently, they just want to leech off more money from the movie-goers.

The Christmas Song

2007-12-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

Diana Krall

My SO bought me a $29 notebook/organizer today. Woah.

Lion says Merry X'mas to all.

Bb too.

heehee. ;)

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Yesterday, Bb brought me to Escape and this was what happened before that happened.

Me "Can I not go...you just...just...want to torture me!"

Bb "You can't escape from Escape!" (evil laughter fills the air)

So we went, he was lemming for the Go-Kart ride, which did not happen in the end as there was a long queue (he hates waiting for anything). The theme park management team should really do something about Escape, it looks so different from its past glory, ever since that 'incident' there... Well, back to the topic, I can't believe the ticket price dropped to a surprisingly low $7 per adult! I was O: + !!!

But, there are two new "attractions" there. The reason for the "" is that these attractions felt more like a 'Pasar Malam ThemePark' attractions than a 'ThemePark' themepark's attractions. Besides that, everything else is still about the same. We wasted the most money on the carnival games - but had great rewards. We won quite a number of soft toys: two weirdly coloured monkeys with expandable arms and legs, a grey horse/donkey, a teddy, a purple snake and a ugly puffy fish with fat blue lips (which I dumped into my SO's bag while he was asleep).

After the few hours of my life wasted there...

Me (whining) "I'm covered in weird coloured fur from those things(toys)...plus I am sweaty, tired and my makeup is running...hais..."

Bb (mumbles)

Me (feeling pissed) "What??? Don't always mumble, mumble, mumble. Speak properly!"

Bb (pissed now) "SO BORING ONE. Waste my money one..." (pouts and starts mumbling)

Bottom line is: Don't go there unless you are feeling rich ~~or wish to die younger~~.

故事讲完了

2007-11-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

甜甘蔗电台

The hospital is a scary place, never liked it and never will. I went there for my checkup today and left with a whole bagful of medicine. My mum was with me (surprisingly) and she made me chuckle when she said:

"Was it your first time going to the pharmacy here?"

[Nods]

"You can really shop ANYWHERE hor."

[Chuckles]

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I can't be blamed, really. The hospital pharmacy is like any normal pharmacy outside - besides being the place for patients to get their prescriptions. It has counters and SAs all around! The pricing was normal and there was even a sales going on!

SALES!

Who can reject that! Plus, I had this hair loss problem and needed to get some stuffs. Yada yada.

&Cut-in: I really hate it when my dad gives me the "I am already so pitiful, you shouldn't make my life worst by asking anything more from me" talk. I know he has many things to handle in his life, but I am his child, and he spends more on his own materialist needs than his child. He spends a few thousand dollars on a fucking car and only S$150 on me per month. And he has the decency to grumble when I ask for a ride home so that I can save money. That explains my personality. It's not that I want to be finacially independent, but that I have to be. From what I see, few people my age are, the others have the luxury to depend on their parents, and yet they have so much more to complain about. Seriously... ~~You people have no shame.~~

So in the end, I got two bottle of hair loss shampoo from Jason, Centrum vitamins and some Arnott's sinful, sinful delights. Tomorrow I am going for a haircut and there is the screen test on Friday. Wooo, I soooo can't wait for that to happen. (With a ridiculous ulcer on my tongue and the irritating hair loss problem.) Plus, I just changed for script (for the gazillionth time) and have to rewrite my proposal. I just can't do heartwarming. I get all warm and fuzzy, it's weird.

My mum just burnt her palm with the iron. Speechless. Totally.

Time of Rebirth

2007-11-26T02:54:00.000+08:00

The Observatory

"There are three kinds of people: dicks, pussies and assholes. Pussies think everyone can get along and dicks just want to fuck all the time without thinking it through. But then you got your assholes. And all the assholes want is to shit all over everything. So pussies may get mad at dicks once in a while because... pussies get fucked by dicks. But dicks also fuck assholes. And if they didn't fuck the assholes, you know what you'd get? You'd get your dick and your pussy all covered in shit."

from here.

She is a talented writer, I almost always enjoy her writing. One post that really 'connected' (can't seem to find the right word, hmm.) with me is this:

on ambition and austere asphyxiation [22 Sep 2007|04:03am]

"If I leave, will you wait for me?"

"I don't know"
"Two years is a really long time."

This will ring in my head until next march, past journalism, past christmas, past new year's and chinese renditions and graduation.

The answer though curt, was fair, and honest, and practical. I never would have been convinced with a positive answer... I've had it with promises and clingwrap obsession (read: nic). But still, anyone who owned ears and a heart and blood would have felt an ache, from the ears, by the blood, to the heart, pushed by pumps, spreading and manifesting. Suddenly, a full-stop is looming, as though it suddenly planted itself smack middle of this path. It will crack the ground all the way to my feet and I might blindly follow that crack as though it leads a way. How did no one see that free-falling.

And I'm squatting in the shower, your toothbrush in hand, sprays beating down my back. I'm just thinking... There are so many things and kinks I want to share with you, some more, and some less significant than the toothbrush I am grasping. And that possible full-stop makes me want to pack everything into a day, go without sleep and go out experiencing, with fear-fuelled adrenaline. But tomorrow is Saturday and we'll sleep in. And I'll wake up earlier as usual and just glance over while you're here but not really here. And possibly, I might kiss your forehead and hope your sleepy persona doesn't get annoyed. Tomorrow is Saturday. And we're doing nothing much. "No point worrying now, there's only so much you can do, and that's nothing at all," you say.

Guess any other person with a significant other in their life will go through this too. If I were told to come up with a list of words to describe love..they would be filled with so much more criticisms than compliments. Sad how fragile, painful, yet strong and honest, love is. When is it human can take a step back to see how love had rewarded them by punishing them with emotions. Emo is from the word Emotions and I can't stop being one now.

Do let me know if there is any disagreements on putting something this private up here. Though I highly doubt anyone that reads her blog would read mine. /:

): Pimples! Are you punishing me for all the late nights? If you are, go manifest yourselves on my work instead.

Strange and Beautiful

2007-11-25T22:06:00.000+08:00

Aqualung

I wish everyday is made of 48hrs instead of 24hrs. Then perhaps I will finally have enough time to touch a teeny weeny bit of everything. Work, love, sleep, creativity needs. ARGH. There is not enough time. Portfolio submission before Dec 15th and I plan to whip up a couple of DA creations to spice it up. But I don't see that happening now..with exams looming, workload piling and, oh my, filming! OH MY DEAR GOD FILMING! AHH!

I am overreacting and I can't stop it. I gave them a couple of stress-free weeks to kindly contact the people for clearance...and what did they do? Spend the time away, screw up my nicely planned schedule for filming and editing and NOT getting any clearance. ~~Can this get any worst.~~ TABOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

&Cut-in: I miss Densha Otoko. If I have 48 hrs a day...I would be watching it now...(rambles on)

Okay, here is a interesting read I pick off the net. Speaking of which, Miss K mentioned that I do not read enough scripts. I can't help being confused about how I can or cannot be descriptive. I can't help having an angsty idea! And now I need to replan/redo everything. ARGH. Look, everything points back to time! There is just a lack of it ~~and motivation~~.

&Ramblings: ~~I want a da account! I should probably start a list <--- on the things that I need to do.~~ *Edit* Done!

(Screams like a raving rabbid.) Here goes:

A LONG time ago, before the world was created and humans could set foot on it, virtues and vices floated around, not quite knowing what to do.

One day, all of them were gathered together, and feeling more bored than ever. Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea: Lets play hide-and-seek! Everyone liked the idea and immediately, Madness shouted: I want to count, I want to count!

Since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek Madness, all the others agreed. Madness leaned against a tree and started counting, one, two, three.. As Madness counted, the vices and virtues ran off to look for places in which to hide. Tenderness hung itself on the horn of the moon, while Treason hid in a pile of garbage. Fondness curled up between the clouds and Passion went to the centre of the earth. Lie said that it would hide under a stone, but hid at the bottom of the lake instead, whilst Avarice entered a sack that he ended up breaking.

Madness continued to shout out: ... 79, 80, 81...? By then, all the vices and virtues were well hidden, except for Love. Fickle as Love is, he could not decide where to hide. Madness counted: ... 95, 96, 97 Just when he got to 100, Love jumped into a rose bush. Madness turned around and shouted: Im coming, Im coming!

Laziness was the first to be found, because he did not have the energy to hide. Then Madness spotted Tenderness in the horn of the moon, Lie at the bottom of the lake, and Passion at the centre of the earth. One by one, Madness found them all, except for Love. He was getting desperate.

Envious of Love, Envy whispered to Madness that Love was in the rose bush. Madness grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the bush. He jabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop. Love appeared from the bush, with both hands covering his face.

Blood oozed from his eyes and trickled down his fingers. Madness had stabbed out Loves eyes with his pitch fork. What have I done? What have I done? Madness screamed. I have blinded you! How can I repair the damage?

Love answered: you cannot repair my eyes. But if you really want to do something for me, can you be my guide? And so it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness.

(Laughs like a raving rabbid)

Would I be totally screwing myself up by changing my hairstyle on Thursday when my Broadcast screen test is on Friday? When I say change, expect CHANGE, so...help me ):

Wednesday is checkup day at the hospital. Oh wee. There will be mc for APEL and since there is no class for ATV, no filming as well thanks to my klutzy group members, I have the day off! For more work. Revision for Law and Script Writing would have to start soon, I am planning to get a notebook (tree-killer yay!) for making notes. Or would doing it in my notebook then printing it out (2 cheers for the tree-killer!) be better? ARGH. STRESS. HAIR LOSS. ARGH.

Script to be handed in on TUESDAY. Read more scripts. NO TIME ARGH. STRESS. HAIR LOSS. ARGH.

Need to find a way to get my MEP video from god-knows-where. ARGH. STRESS. INCREASED HAIR LOSS. ARGH.

I am getting stressed over the littlest things. Just fucking kill me.

Face down

2007-11-24T01:49:00.000+08:00

TRJA

Sighs. Such a bad day. My dad just slammed my worst fear (that I had acknowledged and had been avoiding for days) in my face. My increasing hair loss. It's fair enough that people would argue hair loss is normal...but not when you lose ~~AT LEAST~~ 5 strands every time you comb your fingers through your hair. That is not normal at all. It was to such an extent that there was a humongous lump of reddish-brown hair on the toilet floor...which made my dad worried...amidst a cold war.

I feel like pulling my hair out.

This phenomena might be due to my 'unhealthy' diet - that is very much vitamins-free. I was thinking of finding my bald spot a few minutes ago...which explains the terrifying visit to the toilet. Just flipping through my hair gave way to another 15 strands of hair littered all over the floor and basin.

As much as I do not want to see the truth, it is time. This means digging out more money from my already meager allowance for vitamin pills. Sighs. Anything to prevent going bald. I have a live example of how bad it is. ):

And it doesn't help seeing defiance in other matters of my life. Increased stress = increased hair loss. May lord have mercy on my scalp.

Stuck in the middle

2007-11-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

You guys must see these! Hilarity assured.

Gosh. I never ever get sick of them...I had been watching these for about 3 days, and could still laugh each time! They are so clever and funny! Dear god, these brilliant Indians (Russel Peter as well) just brightens up my dull, dull life!

Probably have to start on my portfolio, school projects and game character design soon...

new blog...(again)

2007-11-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

well, no surprise. those that know me well, know what this meant. i shall not go into it. anyway, plans for new layout is in process - will probably be in progress when i am free (highly unlikely but...hey, you never know.)

okay, as the first post, i am dying to insert one of those little snippets of information that might affect the understanding of the content in the future (me-wise and blog-wise).

1. all titles shall hereby be songs' names
2. evanne (e-vain), is all you should ever refer to me as (unless you are from my circle of friends, which unfortunately is not infinite). my main interests revolves around drawing, creating stuffs, reading, photography, shopping and movies. besides these, nothing else matters much (except the obvious...family and loved ones, duh).
3. i hate the unknown.

okay, that's all for now. everything else would be implemented after the layout is. and currently, i am too lazy/busy for that. mmhmm, the irony of that.